Libido

"Did you see that girl's ass?"
"No. Did you?" -Me
"Yeah. How could I not see it?"
"Well... I didn't." -Me
"Were you not looking?"
"No." -Me

Often times people assume I'm gay because I don't check out and comment on women. Is that really a norm? I would understand if it's accepted. I accept it too. I'm just surprised that it's so far past accepting that there is something wrong with you if you don't do it. I'm reminded that I'm not the norm who's pointing out everyone else's perversion, but rather the strange one pointing at everyone else and wondering why they're normal.

I find I do this much too often. I just don't see myself as this strange entity, but then again, to me I'm not. I need some sort of reminder that I'm not the norm. That's where my friends come in. They are similar to me. I have friends who have slightly higher libidos, and then there are the ones with libidos much lower than my own. It actually feels strange sometimes, to hang out with a group of people in which we don't comment and physical appearances all that often. I just don't like that one person can yell Hooters, and all of a sudden everyone is moving in the direction of Hooters. I've never eaten at Hooters. I don't know if I like their food. Since I can't evaluate their quality based on food, I find that I often think of them as a libido inducing establishment. I suppose I should eat there once to figure it out, but I have no desire for chicken wings and beer among rabid football fans. I like sports. I just don't like the stereotypical fans of sports. The fans I know personally are never terrible. I love them all. It's just the guys I see in sports bars and on TV that I don't like.

I really have to take to heart my statement that you should evaluate people as people, and not as whatever group you put them in. I could say hi to them and find out whether or not I really do like talking to them. If not, then I could always ignore them like I was planning to in the first place. Otherwise, I might find great new friends. I don't know. I guess it all depends on my initial reactions. I should really have none. Reactions shouldn't be on whether a person is yelling or not. They shouldn't be based on the games they play. Initial reactions are fine if a person pulls a knife on me. I do have the right to find the offensive and get the hell out of there, but barring physical harm, I see no reason to not give everyone a chance.

Therefore, bringing the current tangent back to the topic, I should not avoid people who have libidos. They haven't done anything to me, and it's unlikely they will. I can still have conversations with them. I can even talk about attractive people. I mean, did you see that scene in Inception where Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Ellen Page kissed? I was awestruck. I love that scene. It might have to be on a poster in my room. The poster will have a button in the lower corner that will start an audio file. "It was worth a shot." I would adore this item if it existed. Is it wrong that I would want to be with both of those two at the same time?

So, I have a libido. I just don't have one that is based on looks. There are several other things that do it for me though. Intelligence works for me. The smartest people give me the best feelings. I don't care how wrong that sounded. I said it and meant it. I love smart people. I don't care what they're smart in or how they express it. A painter can paint something just as beautiful as something a mathematician can derive. I also love well built, witty, characters, like those in Buffy, Angel, Ouran High School, or Inception. I suppose this is why I love romance comedies. They are made for witty and smart characters.

In the end, I learned something new about myself just by typing out words. I'm just as easily seduced by actors, as long as they use the correct seduction techniques. Or alternatively -- libido, I have one.