And so it begins

Otakon is here. Well, it's there. It's on. I'm just not there to experience it because we're waiting for the guy with a car so we can get there. The girls are preparing their outfits and the guys are sitting around waiting. When our ride gets here we'll have to wait for him to get in costume too. And my hair is all messed up. I forgot my brush. Thankfully I can borrow a hair brush, unlike a toothbrush.

I guess it's really late for a post when we're supposed to leave in 15 minutes, but that happens some times. I hope it's fun. It's likely I will have fun. If I don't it won't be because of the lack of fun things. It will be if she absolutely ignores me. They said the best friend's boyfriend didn't have fun last year. They say I'm like him. I know how he feels. There's all this great stuff around, but it's hard to enjoy it when it seems like she's actively ignoring me. You know people would suspect less if you acted like I'm actually one of your friends. Oh well.

So our ride is here. That means we have to be going soon. I guess I'm not going to be writing a long post. Well, long story short, still upset that she'd rather play online games with people who are in the room with her (and live in NJ with her) than sit down with me. I'm pretty sure she can do that when she's at home and I'm not around. It makes me feel like we don't have anything in common. This makes me feel more like I need to conform to her activities than does her telling me what they are. So instead of me being swayed by her, I have to investigate enough that I can be swayed by her, which makes me feel stalker-esque and desperate. Huh... Sometimes I hate myself.


EDIT:
Lukas does not censor his own work, but must note that hindsight is 20/20. She was debating breaking up with me during this time period. I would have avoided me too. I certainly wouldn't want to cuddle with someone who pissed me off for a month and didn't even look sorry for it.